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I only got one email from anyone who's read my journal, and frankly, I'm a little blue about
that. Granted, it was a good email; he sounded really nice and directed me to a couple of URLs
that I'll get to later in this entry, but can I please just have a pity party for a minute? If
you don't like those, scroll down past the next paragraph.
I really wish somebody would come to my site more often! I'm not all that bad, really! I guess
you can call me an attention grabber; I like attention. Well, perhaps not in real life (I'm
horribly shy sometimes...), but I like to see my counter have at least a couple more hits than
it did the last time I came to the page. So far, I've apparently come to my page over six
hundred times; others have probably come, oh, about thirty. *pout* I really do have good poetry;
one of my poems actually won an award! My stories are innocent enough that they won't scare
people off. Maybe it's my journal here; am I really that threatening? I won't stop writing like
I do; I'm this way, completely random and abstract, so my journal is going to be like that too.
But I really do wish I could get more hits... Maybe I should join some of those webrings! Hmm,
nah, I'm about to leave NNC for the summer and this address is about to change (it has to, or I
won't be able to put any updates into my journal this summer!), so I'd have to redo all my
webring info...Nope, I'll wait a while. But back to the pity party, can't someone PLEASE like my
site enough to come more than once? *sad pout*
Okay, done with that (at least on here), and on to those URLs I was talking about. The one
emailer I got noticed something about a couple of my featured links here in my journal: these
people are Wiccan. Now, you might wonder, should a girl who's going to a Nazarene college and
who is a self professed Christian put such links onto her page? Isn't it against her religion
(ack! That word!! I think I'm going to make another opinion about the difference) to even think about
advertising such horrid pages on her own links page? Well, hate to break this to you, but I can
put whatever I want onto my pages.
Hmm, that came out a little harsh... Okay, let me rephrase that little thought. When I
put a page onto my featured page list (which I do believe I'm going to get rid of; there are
simply not enough good pages to go around for each seperate journal entry) I don't look at the
beliefs of that person. If you've visited my bio page,
you'll see that I listed myself as open-minded. Well, I am. I try my very hardest to take people
as they are, not looking at their beliefs but focussing on the person behind that. Perhaps that
isn't the Christian way, to be tolerant of people, but I honestly think I'm too accomodating
to just shove away a person because they don't go to church. I really want people to see Jesus
and Christianity in general shining out through my actions, through my ideas, though my life,
not shoving it down their throats. On my about me page,
I show who I am. I'm more than that, but it is still a part of me. I am a Christian, and proud
of it.
The pages in question that I was given were this one and this one. If it's
possible to forget all that I said before, how biting I seemed, I must say that I...appreciate
being shown these pages. They're excerpts from a larger book, and while I have to say that I
know I will offend anybody who visits my page and practices Wicca (and probably any Christians
who do not like seeing such a journal entry as this on a Christian girl's page), I agree with
the sentiments given. Jesus said "Love the sinner but hate the sin." I love those who practice
such a religion, yet I hate knowing that what they are doing is so wrong. Worse yet, I hate
knowing that I lack the courage to make any changes in these people's lives. I'm the worst kind
of Christian -- one who practices what they don't preach.
To Christopher, if you're reading this, thank you very much for the pages. I do appreciate your
sending me them, and letting me know you came by. :) I'm in no way putting down your
contribution, nor you yourself; I believe just as you do on this subject. But I just wanted to
make my feelings known about this; as random as they are, though, I fear I might have made any
of those reading this now or in the future even more confused about myself...